The waiting game.....

I am 38 weeks pregnant but my I am measuring 40 weeks.  Now we wait.....  I should be pretty good at this waiting game because it seems like there have been many times in life where I have had to wait for things.  Trying to get pregnant you have the 2 week wait every cycle, waiting for one's menstrual cycle every  month is a waiting game, waiting to hear about a job, waiting for a boy to call you back, waiting for your mom to pick you up from school, waiting to be fed, waiting to be born, we should all be pro's at waiting.  This might be the most exciting wait of my life.  I feel no fear of childbirth, I do not feel afraid of the pain or the physical challenge of birthing this baby, I just feel excited to meet this little one.  I can not wait to see this baby's little face, I can only imagine the feelings I will have when I see it's little hands and feet, it's nose and mouth, it's eyes and head.  How do you prepare oneself for a moment like this in life?  I do not know, all I know is that I am ready and I think I have reached maximum capacity.  From what I understand it is baby who decides when it is time to enter the world so next week (when I am finished working) I will have a little talk with baby and let it know that it is time.

Hormones

Hormones, we all know they can drive us a little wacky if they are out of line.  I have been a bit surprised during my pregnancy at not being too crazy with all the hormones pumping through my veins.  I have actually felt amazingly emotionally stable.  I have been rational, I have been dealing fairly well with my ever expanding waistline, I have been loving and understanding in my relationship, and I have very rarely had momentary breakdowns.

36 weeks, what happened?  I keep crying over silly things, I read a friends blog and I am sobbing, I read my daily e mail from "what to expect when your expecting" and start crying, just thinking about this beautiful baby that will join us sooner than later makes tears of joy just slip from my eyes, I am creating completely irrational scenarios in my mind shattering the beautiful life I have created, I guess the hormones are catching up with me.  I guess I will just have to ride this wave like all the others and cry when the tears form and laugh when they leave.  Maybe I am feeling that the end of baby in my belly is coming, maybe the fact that I am measuring 3 weeks ahead of where I am supposed to is making me feel like baby might be here sooner than we thing, maybe I am just going to be one of those sappy moms who cry at everything.  I am okay with all of it, I just find it strange that it is happening now.